I can't stop thinking about everything that happened to me that's bad in the past how do not let it hurt me?

I moved to TX and it's been the worst experience of my life and not just w/Texas but certain people in particular almost everyone I've gotten close to I feel like I can't take it anymore I've been having panic attacks and the people are just idk and everyone keeps complaining to me the same way it's like omg F off I don't want to be like this. Everybody is stupid and I hate everybody. And then this stupid website you have to censor everything and nobody in TX likes to freaking have a conversation or talk and there's nowhere for me to just say what I need to say, uncensored. Like WTF and this website sucks!